The Keeper of My Dreams

It seemed as if I had no hope

& one thought of you changed it all

Your innocent love and pure intentions

Reminded me of the gentleness that once carried me to peace

A place where the darkness welcomed me with creativity

To be here. Present. & Aware of who you are to me brings tears to my eyes

I pray to the keeper of my dreams “keep my sisters safe”

🙏🏾

Respect the Artist & their BUSINESS

For SEVEN consistent years I have been:

  1. WRITING MY OWN SONGS
  2. RECORDING MY OWN SESSIONS
  3. DESIGNING MY OWN GRAPHICS
  4. SUBMITTING MY OWN COPYRIGHTS
  5. HANDLING MY OWN ADMINISTRATIVE WORK
  6. CREATING MY OWN VIDEO OUTLINES & SOMETIMES EDITS & FILMING
  7. SUBMITTING MY WORK (MUSIC) TO DISTRIBUTION COMPANIES
  8. OPERATING MY WEBSITE
  9. NETWORKING
  10. PLANNING MY OWN PERFORMANCES AND HOSTING MY OWN EVENTS

THE LIST GOES ON….
I have done all of this work INDEPENDENTLY WHILE TRYING TO MAINTAIN CREATIVITY AS AN ARTIST.

There are times when I am EXHAUSTED, OVERWHELMED, and HOPELESS.

So it really BOTHERS TF OUT OF ME when I HIRE PEOPLE TO WORK WITH ME & THEY SLACK OFF & HAVE ABSOLUTELY NO KNOWLEDGE OF MY MUSIC & NO INTEREST IN ME AS A BUSINESSWOMAN.

Working with an artist you HAVE TO BE INTERESTED IN THEIR ART & THE BUSINESS/BRAND THEY HAVE DEVELOPED AROUND THAT ART.

PERIOD. ‼️

AT THAT POINT IT IS NO LONGER ABOUT YOU.

& some of y’all be more worried about how y’all can leach or be apart of something just to be nosey, conniving, and for “bragging rights” or for getting personal information about that person to use to gossip.

& this post is for y’all who have those intentions…

DON’T APPLY FOR A POSTION TO HELP OR WORK WITH ME IF YOU DON’T RESPECT MY HARD WORK, LOVE/ENJOY MY MUSIC, APPRECIATE THE ENTERTAINMENT/MUSIC MARKET (INDUSTRY), KNOW ENOUGH GENERAL INFORMATION ABOUT MY BRAND.

LOVING MY BRAND IS 🔑

I have literally worked with some DISRESPECTFUL PEOPLE IN THE PAST & 2020 don’t act surprised IF I FIRE YO ASX

IDGAF how you feel. This is MY DREAM, MY SAFE HAVEN, MY CREATION THAT GOD GAVE ME TO SHARE WITH MY #ANGELSQUAD

& if you don’t COMPREHEND THAT

……YOU CAN

GRACEFULLY…….

HIT THE ROAD JACK & DON’T CHA COME BACK NO MORE ‼️✌🏾

Women Need Love Too 💜🤍

It just dawned on me that after years of “dating” I have learned from my experiences that I haven’t always been a mature girlfriend/partner

I say that because I had this mentality
“I’m not about to teach a man how to treat me, he should already know”

Which is only partially true, because of the FACT that we are spiritual beings.

There are deep traumas in our invisible minds (conscious) that go everywhere we go.

It is my duty to make you aware of that so you aren’t tormenting me because you haven’t healed.

So if I tell a guy how I like to be treated and he gets angry or says some disrespectful shit

BOY 👋🏽

First off EVERY WOMAN IS DIFFERENT & y’all dudes need to comprehend that when y’all get into new friendships with women.

Y’all really need to understand the type of trauma your woman has been through and what her emotional intelligence level is so y’all can help her BREAK THE CYCLE of BATTERED WOMEN SYNDROME!!!

Help concoct a solution and not contribute to her problems

I’m (WE) not going to lose respect for myself (OURSELVES) to keep you (y’all) around.

& the woman I am now…

HONEYY I NEED LOOOOVVVEEE, COURTSHIP, PASSION, FUN, FREEDOM, LAUGHTER, JOY, PRIVACY, INTIMACY, SUPPORT, GROWTH, Patience….

DONT HIT ME UP TALKING ABOUT SEX.
There are hotlines you can call & hook up apps you can find sex on IM COOL 👍🏾

I’m taking my time…this is my life

Many blessings to all of the men & women in the world celebrating their love stories 💜

& much love to those who’ve made it this far and took their time to read my thoughts. I am truly grateful for your attention and curiosity 🤎

Travel in Sunshine

Ain’t no sunshine to bother your beautiful eyes on this lovely day
& whose shoulders will we lean on now that you’re no longer with us since tomorrow gave you away to another day
We’ve used you up 🤎🖤💚

TRAVEL IN THE SUNSHINE BILL WITHERS

what makes me happy….

Hey WORDies!! I’ve missed you!! My apologies, I have been distant and DISTRACTED from my safe spaces and now I am back! BUT since then I have

-released a new EP

-filmed a few videos

RONI MARSALIS NINE LIVES

AMNESIA TRAILER

 

-had an album listening party

 

and yeah just been living and focusing on being better in my CRAFT, CAREER, and as an overall HUMAN-BEING & WOMAN

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EMBRACING MYSELF, MY BOUNDARIES, MY PEACE OF MIND, & MOST IMPORTANTLY MY TIME.

& I haven’t felt better about my life more than I have now.


Last month in February a friend asked me the simple question…

“What makes you happy?”


& I honestly did not think anyone has ever bothered to care nor have they considered asking… & wuuuu chileeee I’m still learning myself…lol

Nonetheless, after looking at photos of myself as a child until now and reflecting on who and how I am with family; I have concocted a few necessary ethics and hobbies that help me thrive and maintain my joy and a sense of happiness.

  1. A safe haven to be myself and feel comfortable trusting myself to be as beautiful and brilliant as God designed me to be.
  2. Learning new information and appreciating old ways of civilization because to be a human has been a very fulfilling experience. It makes me smile to know where we have come from and how we have grown where we still need to grow….learning & experiencing satisfies my heart.
  3. Being in-tune with my soul and grounded inside of it. 
  4. Nature, Art, Fashion, Architecture, MUSIC, great books, CONCERTS, PLAYS…Being apart of said activities lighten the pressure of being compelled to settling for less than the relaxation and clarity my brain deserves.
  5. RESPECT & EMPOWERMENT TO LIVE ONES TRUTH UNASHAMED 
  6. BOUNDARIES & SELF RESPECT
  7. QUALITY LAUGHTER 
  8. QUALITY TELEVISION/QUALITY MUSIC 
  9. QUALITY CONVERSATION 
  10. QUALITY WORK & QUALITY REST
  11. CREATING QUALITY MUSIC, POETRY, ART, DESIGNS, & RELATIONSHIPS
  12. BEING INDEPENDENT, THINKING WITH A SOUND MIND, AND COMPASSIONATE HEART
  13. SHARING MYSELF WITH LIKE-MINDED INDIVIDUALS WITH GOOD INTENTIONS
  14. COOKING WITH FAMILY 
  15. SPENDING JOYFUL TIME WITH MY LOVED ONESScreenshot_222-Recovered

Farewell…

I loved you. You loved me.

You hurt me & I hurt you.

I cried for you and with you

& you played with my emotions

Maybe it’s me and I am lost

But I gave you my devotion

You left me on hold and kept limits on me and our love.

You were special unlike any other lover I’ve had. Selfless, thoughtful, and full of depth.

I learned a lot from you, but my soul inside has nothing left…

I feel empty, all alone, left stuck in the middle.

But nothing changed it remained the same. Too much pride, too much resentment, too much neglect, and confusion.

We were supposed to be partners, I had dreams of us taking over together, but you didn’t know how to love me. I didn’t know how to love you.

Or maybe even learn you.

Somehow we became enemies, but I wish nothing but the best for you.

A life that no longer stresses you. A partner who brings out the best in you. One you can share your beautiful soul with and grow old and glow with.

Forever and always.

Must be. . . .

The idea of it must be better than the real thing I suppose.

If this is so I must say fantasy and reality mustn’t be related.

Sips tea….

Reality. Sweet soulful sounds somewhat similar to scatting. I think…

You know free from judgment, drama, and fear.

A language only the resilient ones seem to recognize.

(Old Woman) Might I add to this notion?

Why sure you may…

(Old Woman) The idea of you is the real you. A force to be reckoned, respected, and valued as a child of the creator and fearless woman. But if “the idea of you were better than you” then the reality of you must be far much more superior than the idea of you darling. Flaws and All young lady, accept and forgive yourself first.

Vanish

You don’t love me when I’m smiling

You kick me down and then remind me of the times I smiled

You feel better when I’m beneath you.

You feed me lies and confusion, it entertains you.

You don’t listen to me. You’d rather be right and me be wrong instead of being in harmony

You think I should change, but you’re perfect

I wonder if your heart is cold or frozen.

Maybe I should vanish into the bliss of my own heart. The voice in my own head. Maybe I should let you fly free.

Since you never see what’s right, but only what’s wrong with me.