Whats CRAZY…..

As, I sit here back against the wall, laptop on my lap, listening to Janelle Monae’s The Audition “Star”, and reading about J Cole’s Dream Poster event in L.A. I imagine myself negotiating with him about giving me a chance to work with dreamville…..I feel that it is real. I feel it happening soon, but the closer I get to its manifestation the more my mind tries to convince me that I am further away regardless of how close or how far, I am growing and I believe in myself immensely thrown into the challenge I believe that I will come out on top…a winner….the greatest…..powerful.

Looking at how far I have came and how many questions I have had to ask myself in order to move forward with my life I have had to endure a mighty deal of self-shock….sensitivity…..pain…..and most importantly self love! Without the love of self I wouldn’t have had the courage to question myself on the things that I was doing to hinder my own growth…..I understand now that my approach with most things, in some cases I went into situations not acknowledging my own worth. I was so insecure with what GOD has given and approved of me I would operate in a docile and unsure manner…..but what is crazy about the place I believe I am in now is that this place is surrounded by TRUTH…..so it is the safest place to be regardless of what goes on around this place, I am secure in its belly………I never understood that most of my suffering was due to not trusting the shelter truth provided me I had been seeking shelter everywhere but this place called TRUTH. I had convinced myself writing was no longer solving my problems, writing was no longer necessary, writing was a waste of time, I didn’t have time to write, I was contributing to everything but TRUTH….the TRUTH I relive EVERY single time I write out these wondrous thoughts of mine….thoughts given to me by the Most High……

I want to take this CRAZY time of mine to acknowledge the importance of trusting TRUTH and its safe haven….because of TRUTH I have been able to always manage my sanity HAHAHA……

Nahhh but living in truth is granting the support of the universe and the Most High…..

THANK YOU MOST HIGH!!! THANK YOU UNIVERSE!!!!

-Roni Marsalis (NefelibataRoni/RoniFeathers)

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