Daddy

thank you…

I love you more than ever!! 

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Mirror

“oh hey!! It’s you!!! How are you?!”

“Well I’m doing fine trying to find myself…& you know what I’m lying!!! I’m fucking depressed!! I hate my life… I hate me right now…”

Mortal

I’m fighting to feel human…I’m fighting to hold on

God is waiting on me…

He wants me to move on

& surrender to his will…

He made me empty…these mortal ways don’t fill me up anymore…

He wants to fill my life with his promise…

But I’m dishonest…in denial…stressing out…flipping out…going insane…

I haven’t cried…I haven’t laughed…I force my gas to come out…oohhhh this grip I have on being human is sad…

Dangerous….my body is responding to the neglect to the infidelity I have committed.

I’m cheating on myself…to satisfy my human desires….

God takeover…take me away…help me be love…help me be soft…help me be emotional…help me embrace my down moments…embrace my upward moments…embrace my restless moments…embrace my curious moments…embrace my freedom…

Amen. I surrender tonight…

*sips drink*

I remember when you felt free…

I remember when you felt fearless…

I remember when you felt beautiful…

I remember when you loved you…

Be amazing. Be fucking amazing.

  
-ronimarsalis (RoniFeathers/Rahni)

The Robin’s Song

I don’t know what is next, I hope for my hearts desires…all this time I drove myself crazy

& finally a birdy came to me and sang a song so sweet, so innocent, so pure, and so true. Each time in the form of a child. 

Thank you God for making way for me…

Thank you for moving that mountain out of my way God…

I trust you…

I love you…

& thank you Robin for confirming my country love 🌹

-Roni Feathers 

The flight fight…

10/30/2015

We had a huge disagreement and I haven’t let it go,

I guess it had to happen in order for me to grow…

I said some angry things & you struck some angry swings

& I can’t blame you for how you feel nor can I be upset that things turned out this way

& from the looks of our situation our relationship will never be the same

Disowned from the only home I’ve ever known & suffering from vulnerabilities we’ve rarely shown.

That leaves me here with high hopes, promising dreams, prosperous goals, and a bunch of faith in the unknowns…

God hear me out when I ask…

What is it that you want me to learn?? What is it?? Because I am lost and still concerned! I’ve been a rolling stone for way too long…been unstable for way too long…crippled to the core and can’t hold on for too much longer…

I guess I’m done…thank you for all that you have done and will continue to do…

-Roni Marsalis 

(Nefelibata Roni/Rahnii)