Where do hearts go when they break?
Where do minds go when they become silent?
Where does love go when its blind?
Where do tears go when they dry?
Where do smiles go when we no longer use them?
Where does passion go when it dies?
Where do they go??
Do they ever want to be found again?
Are they happy once they leave?
Are they sad?
How do they feel once they leave?
Will they ever come back?
-Roni
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I don’t really know where I am…
One day I think I have a pretty strong idea,
But there is no real solid clarity yet…
I think I am there and then BOOM
I’m not
I wonder why this feeling comes back
It plays with me over and over again
As if I need to be somewhere,
other than exactly where I am…
But how will I know if this is where I should be
If I don’t know where I am…
-Ronisha
I told myself I’d take a year to myself
I said that I was done trying for love & that the last man would be it.
You showed up, so I figured your could be my happily ever after.
So I took a risk, I fought hard and tried a million times.
Took breaks for myself to clear my mind and realign
Just to be lead back to you….
& here I am back on the verge of completely getting over what we could have been and accepting who, what, & where we are
Connected, but there is a shortage somewhere
I don’t know what’s worth it anymore
So I’m back to square one. Starting over by myself again.
13 days down….but I still have 1 year to go
I think I feel you near
As close to me as the pages I read from my favorite books
I think I hear you loud and clear
Roaring like a lion, reminding me to stay alert
I think I can trust you now
Safe like I was locked into an indestructible box
I think I am ready to see you now
I think I am ready to taste your love
The scent of your existence is too potent to ignore
It’s as sweet as a honey, strong as nag champa, and warm as vanilla during a cold winter night.
I know that this time…
It has been promised, protected, and provided by the divine
I know this to be true because I keep seeing two birds…
One is me & one is you 💖
Last year was the first year I spent my birthday without an early Happy Birthday from my sister. As I approach year 2 I almost didn’t want to celebrate.
One because I am getting over the end of a situation that has been going on since 2019 & I realize it isn’t working out like I expect & the person is just not it for what I need and hasn’t shown up for me like I have for him. So it is a bittersweet mood because I do love this person and really hoped it would workout, but I can’t keep my life on hold for NO ONE. You only get ONE & I am going to live it with those that see my value the first time and act the part the first time. I AM DONE WITH THE BULLSHXT. DONE AS FUXK & THAT IS ON MY LIFE. I AM OVER NOT BEING SHOWN THE LOVE I IMAGINE MYSELF EXPERIENCING. NO HARD FEELINGS, BUT I AM DONE. I HAVE NO MORE ENERGY TO GIVE ANYONE WHO ISN’T PAYING ME OR SHOWING UP FOR ME.
Anyways, that enthusiasm I have for my birthday is coming back. I love my anniversary with myself. I mean it is the day they say HIPHOP was born & my nephews Blue & Ace. So last year I spent my bday with Blue at the Dog park while my mama and sisters went out of town.
& I wanted to see Alicia Keys in concert for 2 years in a row, but due to covid her concert was cancelled. for 2 YEARS IN A ROW!!!
I have had to improvise and rework the plan. I realized that a lot of my childhood favorites are getting older and so am I; its time to see them live in concert since I missed their shows as a child & teen. I am really hoping this year I can celebrate my birthday with Alicia Keys in the flesh. Please god!!
Well, me and gods plans are coming together, I finally have the events planned out 🙂 yessss
I’m celebrating all month August summer babies TURN UP ONE TIME!!!! ♌️❤️🔥✨🔥🌻🌹🥰💅💄🪷💋🥳🤪🤩
-HipHopAngel, Roni Marsalis
I was baby sitting a 5 year old child that communicates like the most wise, yet playful, adventurous, and imaginative adult man lol
First, we went out to the park. I call it the dragon park, it is a park I used to visit with my mom as a child. She used to take my second born sister there for some playtime. The beauty is that this park is still the coolest park I’ve ever been too because it has a large dragon with a wrecked ship right in the middle of it. I wasn’t expecting this child to be soooo creative while playing that day. He started imagining a story as if we were on the ship in real life and made me play along with him lmao 🤣 God knows I haven’t sat and playfully imagined anything in a while without some sense of slight doubt, but that day I was forced to emerge myself into his fantasy, which was so much fun. He wanted to play all day and I was like ummmm we gotta go, but I kind of realized his attention span during playtime was longer than mine and it made me question myself lol . Anyways after leaving the park we went out for ice-cream.
While we were ordering the ice-cream the child selected his flavors and watched as the man scooped it into his bowl and with a big smile he said “two scoops” the man and I both giggled at his reaction. The kind man even threw in a cookie =) we took our ice-cream outside and walked around and ate it until it was gone. Then we went toy shopping, which is what is leading me to my headline.
As we were toy shopping, I noticed the toy shop sold “recorders” the instrument and I instantly picked the pink one to throw in for myself lol 😂 (I’m a big asx child) in any case, that was a few weeks ago and last night I finally decided to open it and play it. Then a musical memory came to mind.
The first instrument I learned to play was the recorder, then the piano, the guitar, then the drums. I rarely touch my guitar or drums so don’t ask me to play it lol it’s rough out here. Writing was always there waiting for some friends to join the party 🎊
But ummm yeah a 5 yr old child inspired me too keep my dreams alive & to remember how to stay inside of my imagination because that is where love & play are at their best. Thank you kiddo for the trip down musical memory lane, you restored my faith in my creative discipline ✨🥹❤️🩹💖💜
-Roni
Lonely, but not alone
Waiting, but not for long
Forgiving, but I’m still moving on
Without, you
A FRESH NEW START
We tried it, but I almost lost my heart
Never again will I settle for men
Especially like you.
nefelibataroni 